a buse emotional

i was abuse emotional,when was a child.i grew in extended family.where i never get encourage, they always discourage every thing i do as result i don't have confidence about my self now am 30yrs of age i only pass matric i never trust my myself because i think what people would say,i see people that grew with they got better lives, when i watch t.v shows the numerous women inspired me.now I've got ambitious, desirability that i can stand, trust and more confidence that i can be a successor.